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URForgiven -> RE: I gave up on some of the daily Christian struggle to be free, now my life is filled with disaste (9/7/2008 11:13:00 AM)
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ORIGINAL: SomeFineDay Sorry for the long title. If anyone could give me insight, or perhaps has lived through the same thing. Way back in October of last year, I went through a period of spiritual growth that is continuing to this day. We all know what we need to work on and me being no exception knew very well what my weaknesses and sins were. Started out on the path to overcome them, but I have to admit that I have not tried very hard with some on them, and the ones I have become better at I have to admit the I am at a pedicure level of effort with them, not failing, but not soaring either. I am pretty well versed in theology so I know that is not the level that Jesus would have Christians functioning at. Yokes, abundant life, love me obey me ect.. So, even though I have had much conviction on the above, I have not tried my hardest. I know that that is wrong, I am ashamed even typing it, but I have to admit it is the truth. My question. All before in my life I have been blessed money wise. I am not a greedy person, but it was enjoyable not to have to worry. However, ever since March I have been plagued with one money disaster after another. Everything in my life was set up to go smoothly in that regard and it has not been at all. The last three months have been particularly hard, this has never happened before. Not a little bit, but financial ruin. This ruin all started after a period of conviction after instead of trying harder, I indeed slacked off quite a bit, and it has been running through my mind that last few days that perhaps they are connected. Not that I want to think of the connection, but I have never been that one that had to live though this before, it is very atypical. Am I thinking too much, has this sort of thing happened to anyone here before? I have prayed the last two days and repented and resolved to try much better. Not a bad thing in itself I know. But, am I reading to much into this situation? Am I putting a connection where it does not exist? I don't want to connect God's actions to something that might be random chance. Would God do such a thing? The worse thing is looking at the worry on my husband's face and knowing that I might be responsible for our troubles. Thanks for reading such a long post, would appreciate any feedback. Our struggle is not against flesh and blood. Our true struggle, as Christians, is to enter into God's rest. In fact, this entering into God's rest is our act of obedience... Hebrews 4:10-11 "for anyone who enters God's rest also rests from his own work, just as God did from his. Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will fall by following their example of disobedience." The Christian life is not about cleaning ourselves up, or working harder at being what we think a Christian is. The Christian life is Christ, and only He can live it. John 16:33 "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." In this world we will have trouble. We are not promised that everything will go smoothly. Quite the opposite. And the truth is that we are stubborn and pigheaded people, and we only seem to learn through difficulties. Troubles are opportunities to trust God...where we learn that He is worthy of our trust. I have had many disasters in my life, financial and otherwise. Of course they were not pleasant when I was going through them...but I did go through them. And I came out the other side not only a stronger and better Christian, but a stronger and better person. You may not see the other side as yet, but it is there. Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. Bless you. Peace
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