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PopsiLufsJesus -> Is there any way you could say no to this Man? (9/3/2008 10:50:33 PM)
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Is there any way you could say no to this Man? This past week has been rather frustrating and depressing to me. I think it started into a downward spiral when I learned that the Kid's Center at the church had hired someone only an hour before I had decided to finally apply. What irked me about it was that I was praying for God's will in that situation and I was sure it was God's will, but then the job was already taken when I got there. Anyways... From this I started examining every reason why God wouldn't want me to have this job. After that spiral it just got deeper and deeper until I spiraled into a black hole of thoughts that included things that had nothing to do with not being hired at the Kid's Center. It went into the realm of you don't have a job because you're not talented. Then it went to you are not talented because you didn't finish college. Then it went to you are pretty much a failure because you couldn't finish college. Then it went into if you only had a vehicle you could get a job and you don't have a vehicle. After that is went into God not being fair and why do other people have things. Why have other people succeeded. Then I went into that because I choose to be faithful to God, but I see no blessing coming from it. Then it just kept going further and further away from the Kid's Center. I was soon thinking about how I had no boyfriend, no husband, no children, no family. I was examining my life and finding NOTHING good! Oh and I don't have a boyfriend because I am an UGLY girl. My mind even brought up my scoliosis. Just a rush of everything that is wrong with ME! I realized tonight. It could be worse. I was thinking about what I do have. I do have a best friend who allows me to live in her house and is more than generous with pretty much all that she has--including herself and her time. She listens to me complain and cares enough to tell me the truth. I have a Pastor who I love with everything. Never had a Pastor like him before and I don't think I could find one like him again. At least on this side of eternity. I have Jesus Christ! Jesus Christ gave His ALL for me! Because I have Him I have all that I could ever want or even need! No greater love has any man than this that he lay down his life for his friends...I am His friend! It is my desire to give Him my all after all He chose to freely give me His all. He laid down His life for me on Calvary. He paid the price that I could never pay for my sins and He did it as a sinless Man. He calls me to share Him with the rest of the world and that is what I am going to do. To make Him MORE and me LESS. To invite more people to become His friends. He has called me to live my life for Him!!! Is there any way you could say no to this Man? I say YES to Him. Yes to what He has given me and yes to what He hasn't given me! Yes because what I am lacking He supplies... "You give and take away, You give and take away, my heart will choose to say, BLESSED be Your NAME." "Blessed be Your Name JESUS!" Take Care, Pops
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